Wewillgrowupafterall.Grownup,sensible,worrytoomuch.Wouldyouliketolistentomystory?
"Growingupisnotgood,aswellasachildyou."Hisparentsoftenunrighteousnesscommends,home.Inthefaceofthesewords,Ialwaysspeechless.Yes,IamnotasobedientcleveraswhenIwasachild,nolongerlikebefore,aslongastheparentswords,Iwilltrymybesttodo,nowofI,nolongertodothingsyoudon like.Becauseofhisownideas?Haveyourownidea?Ifso,thenItheideaof"self"doesn seemtobelovable.Havetheirownthoughts,however,iswrong?Don wantto,Idon wanttobearobot,abitmoredon wanttoforceyourselftodosomethingyoudon like.
"Youarenotalittletension?"Otherparentsandhome.Iknowwhatisthisage,youdon workhardyouwillonlybecomealaughingstock.Realityiscruel,competitivenessisverybig,Iknowwhatisthepressure.Itwouldbelikeamountainhardpressure,inmyheartisveryheavy.Idon knowatthetimeofthenightsilentpeoplelonelycryhowmanytimes,andcriedwhilereading,headisabouttoexplode,butIstillhavetobiteatoothfinishtodaystask.Ihavetried,butbythissentence.Oh,thetension.Heartspecialinjustice,thensimplyindulgence,stoppedtoletyouraccomplishmentstofall,stillcansmiledoesn matter.Isthisrebellion?Idon know,ifitis,therebelliousseemslesslovable.
"Saidatoptensentences,tempersobig."Parentsangrywords,aclassicinthehome.Don knowifitbecauseofthepressureoravarietyofreasons,mytemperisbecomingmoreandmorebadtemperbecomesdry,moody.Mightevenbehappyonasecond,nextsecondisangry.Istillremembermyoldcharacter,verygentle.Explosionisnowdry,alotoftimes,eachtimeIangry,Idon knowwhywanttoangry.Butreallyalot,isImakeamountainoutofamolehill,alotofthingsdidn needtobuygas,andevenwasajoke,Icanbeangry.EvensometimesIfeelbraincramps,menopause.Iwanttochange,butdon knowwhythehelpless.
Thisismytrouble,mystory.Iwanttosolvethem,canyouhelpme?
初一:肖磊
